“Ch’loi?” It was the voice of the Great
Primary. The voice of the
benefactor. The voice of the
Fire-maker’s .. originator. There
was no cast for “Father.” The
Harvester-known-as-Ch’Loi struggled with the concept. ‘Kin’ it understood.
It had many kin. This was a
type of kin. A special type with
special privileges and bonding rituals.
The Harvester-known-as-Ch’loi had never been held and gripped as the
benefactor had held it, like a restraint..yet with gentleness. As if the benefactor was giving something
instead of taking. Sharing. Not in the harvester way. Not the way the hive took a harvester’s
bounty from its crop. Not with a
frenzy of pain but with… Again the
wall of silence. The
Harvester-now-known-as-Ch’loi wished for the words of the Fire-maker. New words that brought back old
meanings. There were no fires of
ideas and concepts without words.
“Ch’loi?”
the voice said again. “Can you
hear me? I thought you said…”
A
new voice, the primary of the physicians, “it will take some time, the hardware, if you will, is sound, the mind must learn to use it. Make new connections from the brain to the…”
Without
thinking the Harvester-known-as-Ch’loi cast, “Not thee.” A sound frightened it! It jumped, or tried to. Something held it down. It strained, it was so weak.
“Good
Yah have mercy! The bonds..!”
“Will
hold, Sire. Amazing! So quickly! Truly a beautiful piece of engineering!”
“Ch’loi,
you must not be afraid. I am with
you.” The
Harvester-known-as-Ch’loi ceased struggling. “Your eyes are… not ready yet. Much of your body is different now. How do you feel?”
It
wanted to slash, “No!” but its arms were held fast.
“How
do you feel? Tell me, are you in
pain?”
It
wanted to chop.
“Use
words, Ch’loi. You have them now.”
“Hoort.” The sound made it jump again. It was so loud! So close! It happened when she cast!
“How
much, Ch’loi, how much do you hurt?
Is it bad? Would you like
to sleep instead?” Strain. “I feel your arm trying to answer, use
your mouth. Learn to use it. It will take practice. Is it bad, the hurt? Do you want to sleep?”
“No.” Only a little jump. “Not ..thleep.” It felt now the organ that made the
sound. It moved and was ..filled
with something, something new and flexible and it could feel itself, touch
things. The
Harvester-called-Ch’loi explored this little cave with the flexible organ and
realized, “Not tooth!”
“Yes,
we took that out. It wasn’t a part
of you, not what you were, what you were meant to be.”
“How..trink?”
“You
will learn, you will learn how to drink and eat! Do you remember eating? There will be many
things to learn, to discover. Most
can wait till your strong. But
tell me, Ch’loi, what do you remember?
Do you remember a time before this was done to you? Before the tooth?”
“No. Tooth alway. Need alway.”
“You
don’t remember a home? A mother or
a father? You don’t remember where
you came from? What you were?”
“No. Tooth alway. Need alway.”
“You don’t remember a time before the tooth, a time when you were.. a little girl?”
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